人生能有幾次重來的機會?又有多少人有勇氣把握住這個機會?
馬修‧漢恩(Matthew Hahn)是一名前科累累的竊盜慣犯,從高中輟學後靠竊盜維生,又染上了毒癮,當他入獄服完5年的刑期,2001年他剛出獄時不過才21歲。
剛出獄的馬修試著讓自己振作,找了工作、考上大學,就在他即將開始第二人生,卻因為童年好友的死去讓他大受打擊,再次陷入毒癮,偷竊的惡習也捲土重來,好不容易重新開始的人生又陷入泥淖。
2005年時,一如往常到處行竊的他偷回了一個保險箱。然而打開保險箱後他愣住了,裡面並沒有財物,只有一把槍、一些照片和個人文件、髒汙不堪的尿布,他還找到了一張記憶卡。好奇之下,他用電腦讀取了記憶卡,沒想到記憶卡裡滿滿都是一名男子猥褻年幼的嬰兒和幼童的照片,這時他才知道,自己闖入的是一名戀童癖的住處。
馬修的第一反應是衝出門報警,畢竟那些照片實在太不堪入目。然而,馬修自己也是個罪犯,而且根據加州俗稱「三振法」的規定,要是重刑罪被定罪三次以上,刑期會被大幅延長,最短25年起跳、最高便是無期徒刑──而現在的馬修已經有兩個前科在身,要是他選擇報警,勢必得向警察解釋保險箱的來源,到時候竊盜罪一旦成立,下半輩子只能在監獄裡度過了。
幾經掙扎之下,馬修還是選擇了良心,但他也無法鼓起勇氣面對終身監禁的後果,於是他將記憶卡放進空錢包,塞進一張寫著戀童癖罪犯的名字和住處的紙條,並加註「請除掉這個禽獸」,匿名將錢包寄到了警察局。
接下來,他謊稱記憶卡是從二手拍賣拿到的,拜託母親注意新聞報導,想知道這些罪行到底有沒有被揭發。好在,一個星期後,那些照片的主人約翰‧羅伯特森‧艾特肯(John Robertson Aitken)被逮捕了。
據說,22歲艾特肯發現保險箱被偷後整個人都慌了,立刻打電話報警,還焦慮的向朋友們說自己的人生即將完蛋。果然,收到匿名舉發的警察不久後便找上門來了。在照片裡遭到毒手的是他上司的女兒,藉著和女孩父母良好的交情伺機下手。
另一方面,舉發艾特肯的馬修雖然做了好事,卻沒有停下偷竊的習慣。在艾特肯被捕約兩個月後,馬修將偷來的贓物放到網路上販售後,警察循線逮到了他。看著馬修的經歷,警方忍不住問:「你到底怎麼了,之前不是過得不錯嗎?」
馬修無可奈何的說:「算了,至少我把艾特肯交給你們了。」並將他寄出那張記憶卡的始末告訴警察。
得知這件事後,負責艾特肯案的地方檢察官找上了馬修,希望他出面作證。然而,已經被三振出局的馬修要是出庭作證,就必須承認自己的犯行,那麼等著他的就是高達400年的刑期。
最後,馬修還是同意了檢察官的提議,在他的作證下,艾特肯被判了25年的刑期。
15 years. . I used to shave using the stainless steel mirror bolted to the concrete wall of my cell. My distorted reflection stared back at me between the swirls of scratches and etched graffiti that marred its surface. I could barely see my face and I hated shaving. That was in the county jail. . I graduated from the stainless steel mirror to the handheld plastic variety. When the mirror was brand new, my face mostly visible only in fragments. The mirror was too small to get an idea of what everything looked like together. I could set it on a shelf and step back, but my cell wasn’t even large enough for more than a single step. I still hated shaving. That was in Folsom State Prison. . I was part of a Buddhist sangha that met in Greystone Chapel every Tuesday night. Volunteers from the free world delivered a Dharma talk and held space for a silent meditation. Sometimes guests came with the volunteers. One night, a monk came in. . “Be mindful of everything,” he said. “Be mindful of your eating. Be mindful of your pooping. Be mindful of your shaving.” I chuckled to myself. I didn’t understand. . While shaving, I thought about the end of shaving a lot. I thought about how crappy my mirror was. I thought about how miserable shaving was and how I couldn’t wait to be free to never shave again. . And then, one day, a droplet of shaving cream and warm water trickled down my neck and into the crevice beneath my Adam’s apple. “Be mindful of your shaving,” he said to me. I never hated shaving again. . Today, I must shave more than my face. Time passes and aging happens. 15 years happened. 15 years since the last time I got loaded. 15 years since I surrendered. Surrendered, literally, to the police. Surrendered, metaphorically, to life itself. 15 years since this journey took a sharp turn. . I see my reflection in a fairly standard mirror today. It is made of glass. I can see most of what I’m looking for and all at the same time. My body bears the marks from the journey. My face shows the wear of the elements. . My image is still distorted. Less so, but distorted nonetheless. Getting there. . 15 years and a day. . #sobriety #mindfulness #recovery #prison #shaving
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而他的決定也得到了回報,一邊是將被監禁25年的戀童癖、一邊是賭上終身監禁後果揭發他的竊盜犯,許多人連署請願支持馬修,再加上和檢察官的認罪協議,最後他被判處14年又4個月徒刑。諷刺的是,馬修和艾特肯之後被關到了同一個監獄裡,只是由於艾特肯在獄中被隔離,兩人從未碰面。
服刑7年後,馬修假釋出獄。這次他下定了決心洗心革面,不但在戒了毒,還受到了艾特肯案受害女童的母親協助,在獄中自學,出獄後考上了加州大學柏克萊分校。只可惜雖然取得漂亮的學歷,但更生人找工作並不容易,他最後成為了一名電機技師。除此之外,他還是業餘作家,閒暇時寫作和經營Podcast,和妻子跟愛貓一起生活。
有些人批評,馬修原本就因為另一樁竊盜案被捕,和檢察官的認罪協議不過是減刑的協商交易,還利用輿論博取同情。不過不論如何,如果最初不是他的揭發,艾特肯的犯行可能永遠不會見光。而這次,他總算抓住了命運給他的機會,重新走上正軌。
via BBC